Taking a break from Cabo fun to do some serious talk. Grab a cup of coffee and sit and have a chat with my brain for a moment.
I’ve been trying to think of a way to get this post out for a while now and never felt it was either the right time or I had the right words to say. But I am realizing its now or never so I am forcing myself to JUST DO IT. (sorry Nike, I had to steal it, its just too perfect a phrase.)
Here are the facts.
1) I love blogging. Probably too much. There I said it.
2) We are moving in about a month and preparations for that are beginning to take their toll
Those facts lead to internal conflict. I’m working it out. Bear with me.
When I sat down and thought about this conflict and how to address it on this blog, these are the issues I dealt with.
I have never wanted to be someone who whines about being too busy.
“Woe is me…I have this great full life that is filled with friends, a job, a husband, kids, dogs, a church and church groups….THE WORKS. Poor, poor me.”
No, I don’t want to be like that. I feel incredibly blessed and thankful for my life and what goes on in it, complaining has no place for me.
Note that I say I don’t want to be like that. Doesn’t mean that I’m not from time to time. I can whine with the best of them. Ask Paul. (Or don’t)
I also don’t really feel like I owe anyone explanations. Blogging is a hobby not my job. No one expects me to throw up a post every day or every other day for that matter. I know that if I don’t, it doesn’t mean they will hate me and never talk to me again or worse…never come back and visit my little home on the web. I know this in my head, but my head is also really good at lying to me sometimes….
Although I do admit that I kind of like the thought of angry readers protesting my lack of posts and insisting that I entertain them with my witty prose once again…
But at the same time, I don’t want people to wonder what is going on either. I don’t particularly enjoy being “left out of the loop” so I don’t want to be the “leaver out of the looper” either.
I like blogging. I like posting every day even though that is extremely hard. I put time and effort into my posts and I am hard on myself and my writing so that means it takes even more time. I am not like some others out there who I know can throw together written genius in 30 minutes. My
mostly failed attempt genius takes time. Lots of it.
But when you love something, you don’t mind putting time into it. That’s what time should be for anyway, right? Until now it has been.
But this is what’s going on in the next 5 or so weeks:
- Continuing to work my full time job which includes an almost 2 hour a day commute
- Begin to pack and prepare the house to be rented out again
- Oranize and arrange all the things that need to be organized and arranged before moving to another state
- I will be teaching a class at Bellevue College for four weeks starting next week. Only one night a week, but there are preparations and class time
- Preparing for a mini-sprint triathlon. AHHHHH!!!
- Spending time with friends and my city before we depart <—-most important to me
I’m sure I probably left stuff off list this, but these are the things that are on my plate.
So what does all this boil down to? This blog is gonna have to take the way back burner in the meantime. I’m not going to stop posting all together, but the posts that do happen will probably be shorter and (hopefully) sweeter than usual and might just include updates etc….
This gives me twinges of sadness. Its what I’m sure marathoners feel like when they get a stress fracture, or what hand models might feel like if they get some sort of nail fungus. These things will pass, they are just currently preventing me from focusing time and energy on something I love doing.
But its just that, temporary.
I’ve got big plans and LOTS of ideas for posts in the future and once we move and I am job and commute-less, the time to dedicate to those posts will increase dramatically.
So anyway, I just wanted to let you (my faithful and amazingly awesome readers) know what is going on. I can’t even describe or begin to tell you what your time, feedback and comments mean to me. The sense of community and camaraderie in the blog world is really a spectacular thing that I am so glad I stumbled upon almost a year ago. I pretty much just want to take you and put you in my pocket and carry you around with me wherever I go.