Taking a break from Cabo fun to do some serious talk. Grab a cup of coffee and sit and have a chat with my brain for a moment.
I’ve been trying to think of a way to get this post out for a while now and never felt it was either the right time or I had the right words to say. But I am realizing its now or never so I am forcing myself to JUST DO IT. (sorry Nike, I had to steal it, its just too perfect a phrase.)
Here are the facts.
1) I love blogging. Probably too much. There I said it.
2) We are moving in about a month and preparations for that are beginning to take their toll
Those facts lead to internal conflict. I’m working it out. Bear with me.
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When I sat down and thought about this conflict and how to address it on this blog, these are the issues I dealt with.
I have never wanted to be someone who whines about being too busy.
“Woe is me…I have this great full life that is filled with friends, a job, a husband, kids, dogs, a church and church groups….THE WORKS. Poor, poor me.”
No, I don’t want to be like that. I feel incredibly blessed and thankful for my life and what goes on in it, complaining has no place for me.
Note that I say I don’t want to be like that. Doesn’t mean that I’m not from time to time. I can whine with the best of them. Ask Paul. (Or don’t) 
I also don’t really feel like I owe anyone explanations. Blogging is a hobby not my job. No one expects me to throw up a post every day or every other day for that matter. I know that if I don’t, it doesn’t mean they will hate me and never talk to me again or worse…never come back and visit my little home on the web. I know this in my head, but my head is also really good at lying to me sometimes….
Although I do admit that I kind of like the thought of angry readers protesting my lack of posts and insisting that I entertain them with my witty prose once again…
But at the same time, I don’t want people to wonder what is going on either. I don’t particularly enjoy being “left out of the loop” so I don’t want to be the “leaver out of the looper” either.
I like blogging. I like posting every day even though that is extremely hard. I put time and effort into my posts and I am hard on myself and my writing so that means it takes even more time. I am not like some others out there who I know can throw together written genius in 30 minutes. My mostly failed attempt genius takes time. Lots of it.
But when you love something, you don’t mind putting time into it. That’s what time should be for anyway, right? Until now it has been.
But this is what’s going on in the next 5 or so weeks:
- Continuing to work my full time job which includes an almost 2 hour a day commute
- Begin to pack and prepare the house to be rented out again
- Oranize and arrange all the things that need to be organized and arranged before moving to another state
- I will be teaching a class at Bellevue College for four weeks starting next week. Only one night a week, but there are preparations and class time
- Preparing for a mini-sprint triathlon. AHHHHH!!!
- Spending time with friends and my city before we depart <—-most important to me
I’m sure I probably left stuff off list this, but these are the things that are on my plate.
So what does all this boil down to? This blog is gonna have to take the way back burner in the meantime. I’m not going to stop posting all together, but the posts that do happen will probably be shorter and (hopefully) sweeter than usual and might just include updates etc….
This gives me twinges of sadness. Its what I’m sure marathoners feel like when they get a stress fracture, or what hand models might feel like if they get some sort of nail fungus. These things will pass, they are just currently preventing me from focusing time and energy on something I love doing.
But its just that, temporary.
I’ve got big plans and LOTS of ideas for posts in the future and once we move and I am job and commute-less, the time to dedicate to those posts will increase dramatically.
Lucky you.
So anyway, I just wanted to let you (my faithful and amazingly awesome readers) know what is going on. I can’t even describe or begin to tell you what your time, feedback and comments mean to me. The sense of community and camaraderie in the blog world is really a spectacular thing that I am so glad I stumbled upon almost a year ago. I pretty much just want to take you and put you in my pocket and carry you around with me wherever I go.
So thanks. 
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I absolutely understand what you are going through. And can’t tell you enough to seriously spend all the time you can with the people around you right now. I miss so many friends from Phoenix. I’ll definitely be here when you’re back…and can’t wait to hear about all your adventures to come!
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girl! I will miss you but i more than understand… obviously my blog has taken the back burner most of the summer! I just have been having too much fun
we all need time and ihave the same thoughts as you do on it – its a hobby and if you make it a chore you wont like it as much!
Andrea @ Andrea Out Loud! recently posted..The Underwear-Skirt Malfunction
Girl, if you need to take the time then take it! Blogging should always be on the back burner when it comes to life stuff. I hope you feel better finally talking about all this on the blog. I know I always do.
Take your time, enjoy everything. We’ll all be here when you get back.
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No worries, we’ll be here when the real world stuff settles down a little! I think you’re totally smart to put the blog on the backburner for a little bit so you can focus on everything else. Good luck on your sprint tri!!!!!
I feel torn between the real world and the blog world a lot too, but when it comes down to it, the real world is much more important! Take the time to do what you need to do — the internet will still be here when you’re ready to come back
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Emily @ Perfection Isn’t Happy recently posted..Friday Things
I’m glad to know I’m not alone in the struggle. Thanks Emily!!
Before I started my blog I decided ahead of time I would post on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. No clue why, just an arbitrary decision. If I missed a day I felt guilty, like I had to put up something . . . even if it was just a little something. Then I would feel guilty that it was just a little something. Not my best.
No fear, I got over it and now post when I want to. Hopefully three times a week but sometimes just two if that’s how the week goes. I feel much free-er this way. Less weight on the shoulders. After all, it’s my blog and I can do whatever the freaking heck I want. And so can you.
We will miss you daily, but my mission to read all your old posts in a row has proven more time consuming than I originally thought. So I will still have some Cinnamon to read.
Keep us updated. Even short posts that say Hi or a quick pic are good for me. Maybe we can mix things up . . . you can pack up my house and I will pack up yours. It’ll be fun that way. You can make fun of my crap while I make fun of yours. I could teach your class too. It’s on poodles right?? Thoughts??
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I totally agree. In the ONE day since posting this I already feel more free. I know I could have just decided and done it without providing any sort of reasoning or explanation, I just felt better about doing so. In the spirit of transparency (< —-corporate lingo)
I still can’t get over your challenge. While I think you are slightly crazy for doing it, I secretly wish other people would take it up as well. Every “old” post you comment on, I click on it and read it again and remember what I went through when writing it. So that has been fun! I also look back and see sooo many posts that I got no comments on at all and I am proud that I didn’t throw my hands up and stop.
Now you will have a month and change to forge ahead and catch up on all things Cinnamon. There’s still some really good ones coming I promise!
I love the idea of us packing up each others houses. SO MANY things you could make fun of over here. Don’t even get me started on Paul’s three giant boxes of every cord, plug, connector, ear bud, phone charger that exist. We have them all. We think.
My class is Performance Management and Employee Relations, but I think we could easily change it up to Poodle Management and Canine Relations. Basically the same thing.
Cinnamon! As a fellow sufferer of at least 2 hr commute each day with many other daily responsibilities and craziness that pull you from left and right..I completely understand how you feel! My school starts in 2 weeks and that means I’ll probably be joining you soon. And I think about it too! What if I lose all my readers? What if I’m not in the loop with everything that’s going on in the blogging world? What if..what if? But you’re absolutely right! I blog because I choose to. It’s a wonderful hobby of mine. But somehow, I feel like it’s turning into a duty because of my “I have to” mentality. Of course I’ll miss you, but I can’t WAIT to hear about all the exciting happenings in your life! Good luck with the move!!
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I’m so glad to hear I’m not alone!! Life is so beautiful and wonderful its no surprise we want to share it by blogging…its just all about the balance. Hugs!!!
Oh my gosh, I LOVE THIS POST. I feel the same way a lot of times. I sometimes let blogging stress me out (which is silly, because it shouldn’t be) and I sometimes have to stop myself from “complaining” about things that are actually really awesome!
Liz @ iheartvegetables recently posted..Birthday Eats
I know, I hear that so often…we shouldn’t let blogging stress us out. BUT its something we care about, and when other things get in the way of things you care about, its stressful! Glad to know you relate
Nail fungus on hand models ??? Sounds like something I would say. Be sure to write down all the whitty ideas that pop into your head. You will have lots of time to make us laugh in a couple of months.
Well I am your child, so it only makes logical sense that I would say something you would say. And that also sounds like something you would say.
Grandma told me in her last letter that she was going to get a computer to read “the Facebook” and blogs. She wasn’t going to put “anything in the computer”.
She cracks me up. I might have to write a post on that.
I ditto Brittany!!
And you know I’ll still be here when you come back! 
Hugs!!!!
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hugs, hugs, a thousand hugs!!
sprint tri?? woohoo!!! good luck! get training, girl!!!
so busy!
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its 450m swim, 9 mile bike and like a 1.6 mile run. So VERY reasonable distances. A regular sprint tri is twice the swim and run, so this should be dooable. I’m looking forward to it!!
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
So just when I discover you you decide to go away? Not allowed.
But I kid…it will give me time to catch up on your past genius, right?
As for blogging, I don’t know how you do it if you do it every day. And that commute? Killer. I have a 30 minute commute and only post a couple of times a week, so you most certainly have a lot on your plate (no pun intended.) Good luck with the exciting changes and I look forward to updates to come!
Abby recently posted..Nothing to Sneeze At
ok so I did a double take when I saw you commented. I feel like you are famous and I was always jealous seeing your comments on Joanna’s blog. Now I feel speechless (or type less)…whatever its called.
So anyway, now that I’ve made it all awkward. HI!! Thanks for stopping by.
Honestly I don’t know how I’ve done it either. too many late nights and blogging when I should be working. shhhh don’t tell. our little secret.
I hope you do poke around and hope even more that you that you smirk or smile whilst reading. I love funny people and love it even more when funny people think I’m funny too. Its like a little secret club of funniness and I got invited to the meeting. DYING.
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
What? That’s ridiculous! I’m a tiny little peon in the blog world who rambles on about things no one else really gives a crap about. I would probably spend late nights blogging if I had more ideas of things to blog about and liked to stay up past 10 pm. Props to you!
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Oh no, I think of you as “famous” too Abby.
Joanna @ Midwestern Bite recently posted..Big Brother Is Becoming More Like Big Brother Every Day
Right? totally famous
nope, you are totes famous so you are gonna just have to deal. You have a BOOK and you were on TV flailing your arms. If that doesn’t make you famous, I don’t know what does. Maybe go somewhere without your underwear on just to solidify things.
Good for you! Definitely take some time to enjoy your old city, take in your new one, and not stress out! We’ll all be here when you’re ready
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awww thanks Laurie. I do have plans to do the award you nominated me for! I’ve already got an idea on what I am going to do for it. Might be next week sometime.
HUGS!
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
Your life has always been busy, and you have developed a strong gift for prioritizing. You are an “executive” at heart, I think (as in making good plans and then executing them well). I will miss your blog, but then I get to spend almost two weeks with you soon, which will be better than blogging. Just think of all the great catch-up blogs we’ll enjoy once you’re settled into a less hectic lifestyle! I love you to pieces and then some.
thanks Mom. Right back at ya! I’m sure you will make for some good blogging material so make sure you do some crazy stuff when you are here, k?
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
Should not be a problem. A significant amount of what I do, say, think, etc. seems crazy to a considerable number of people. I’ll do my best to provide you with some interesting (perhaps even hysterical) material.
perfect. I appreciate it.
No, HERE’S the deal, see. This is America. We get to vote here. I don’t remember getting to vote that I don’t get to read your blog regularly. I’m sorry if you want to “enjoy your city and friends”, but my needs supercede yours.
LOL Hope these last few weeks are sweet and so full you have TONS to blog about once you’re settled in CA. In the meantime, I’ll be making up stories in my head about what you’re doing 
picket lines and tear gas…just a recommendation. If it makes the evening news I “might” consider posting once a day again…..just sayin’
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
Oh don’t worry! I know I will still be loving your blog and coming to see what you are up to. Life is meant to be lived and blogging should not hinder that. You do so much in this community that a little hiatus will not make you forgotten. I know I am the same way, I hate the idea of letting people down but in reality know that you are letting no one down!
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thanks for the confirmation Alex, that means a lot. I appreciate it!!
eatpraytri recently posted..So here’s the deal…
Not to worry, Cinnamon! Just because you post less frequently or because your posts are shorter, doesn’t mean that we will stop visiting! I went through a similar revelation a while back when I came to grips with the fact that I was putting more into my blog than I was putting into real life. What kind of fun is that?!
Thanks for being so open, and I look forward to what you have to share with us in the future!
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Ohhh Brittany…I love you. Thanks for the insight and kind words. HUGS!
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